How Your Life Would Be Different If You Are Losing Your Memory Completely

Back then I used to questioned myself ; How would my life be different if I am losing my memory completely? How would I react if I wake up in a bedroom, thinking I am a pathetic eighteen years who is having a disastrous student's life when suddenly I looked at the mirror and realize, it is six years later! - I am actually twenty four years old, my hairs are straight and I am currently doing my houseman-ship at neurology department of John Hopkins Hospital! 

Okay, this is kinda serious and a bit ridiculous but nevermind. I need to just go with the flow. Let alone the memories of my past which I don't remember and focus to lead a better future. Well, remember! Not all memories are meant to be cherish forever. Trust me. On the other hand, I bet this would be one of the best parts in my life as I can be whoever I wanted to be and of course I won't let this chance slip away.

Therefore, if I ever happened to lose my memory completely, I will ;

1) Change my name as a fresh start and acted like a new person. At the same time, maybe I should consider to named myself the same as my favourite celebrity's - how cool!

2) Change my appearance and fashions. I mean, instead of wearing the same boring attires, I should have try to wear exclusive suit designed by famous designers - or at the very least, I will wear something up-to-date. 

3) Not having appointments with psychiatrist as I don't think I would like to recall my past memories. Well, just let bygones be bygones. It would be better.

4) Find new partner. Well, for someone who is losing her/his memory, I am sure I won't even remember my previous partner but that is not a big deal. I can choose either to stay with him/her or simply find a new one. 

5) Asked help from someone to investigate what had actually happened that caused me to lose my memory. If it is proven that I involved in an accident, i guess it is the right time to claim for the insurance and enjoy the money! 

6) Asked for a year leave with salary ( if I happened to have a job) and went to enjoy my new happy life with my new favorite person. Well, I am sure no one will get mad on me at that time instead they will try their best to help me gain my memories - which I don't want to remember.

7) Destroy all my past records ; medical report, albums, diaries and such because I really don't want to remember any of them. I don't want to remember who was my enemy, my first crush and what are the most embarrassing moments I have ever experienced. God.

8) Asked for forgiveness from my parents for my past stupid actions without feeling any embarrassment because I am not sure what happened in the past. So, all I have to do is pleading innocently.

9) Enjoy living while making messes, sometimes, because I believe at the end of the day, no one would put the blame on me. In another words, I think this is the time when I can try to do something extraordinary without losing my pride - maybe I could even try to upgrade the rice cooker into bombs! - But I hope i won't ended up being admit to a mental hospital!

10) Become more dependent towards person whom I trusted the most - parents and family. I am not sure if this is actually an opportunity for me to reconcile with everyone but if yes! I won't take it for granted. 

Bare in mind that when a person is losing his/her past memories, it does not simply mean that a person is crazy or insane. Sometimes, they lose their memories as a result of being traumatic or phobia towards incidents and sometimes they even lose their memories because of suffering a great pain of pressure and stress.